I remember one evening in fall of 2012, before moving to
Haiti was even a thought in my head, and before I had really started to grow in
my faith. I was standing at the sink (yet again!) doing some dishes after work
and started thinking about the purpose of our lives here on earth. I was
standing there thinking to myself, “Wow,
my weeks are all the same: work 9-5 Monday-Friday, come home, make dinner, do
dishes, hang with friends on weekends, etc. If this is all I’m living for day
after day, week after week, etc. it’s boring!!” I started to think about
how I lived for something more than just life here on earth and if I didn’t
have God in my life, I’d have nothing to truly live for and be excited about! I
was reminded that everything we do in life should be a reflection of God. He
should be constantly on our hearts and minds all day every day and we should
always be working to show love to others as He would do. Little did I know at
the time, a few months later my life would be turned upside down with the Holy
Spirit nudging me to do what God had planned for my life. Even though days here
are hard, frustrating, and exhausting at times; I still would rather be
challenged endlessly every day than live a boring comfortable life where I
never was pushed to my limits.
I opened a random “Blessings card” from my 6th
grade teacher Mr. Gude the other night. The front of the envelope read, “Bloom where you are planted.” That was the
perfect reminder because sometimes I forget I need to just bloom right here,
right now, in Haiti. This is where God has planted me in this season of life
and I need to adapt to it and trust that He has a plan and a purpose here! Mr.
Gude also goes on to talk about how my 6th grade class required him
to take a different approach to teaching. He didn’t necessarily like it (it
wasn’t easy or comfortable for him at times) but he had to stick with it anyways.
In the end, the benefits reaped were very much worth it. I also do not like
every situation I am put in here, but every situation I face pushes me to grow
in one way or another and I too will reap the benefits from them one day. I am
learning to adapt. I am learning to trust God in EVERY hour of every day. I am
learning to use prayer like I never have before. I am learning that He can
change people’s hearts. I am learning how to be more patient. I am learning a
new language. I am learning a new culture. I’m learning more about myself and
about God than I ever have in my life! I’m thirsty for more of His word every
day and I constantly want to be refilled and refreshed by my Savior. I cannot
do any of this on my own and that has never been more apparent.
I also opened a card from my mom the other night because I
needed some encouraging words from her. I found a beautiful note in there with
a charm that said “Be strong.” It’s so cool to see God place the exact words I
need to hear, at the exact time I need to hear them! :) She had cut out the words of
the song “10,000 Reasons (Bless The Lord)” in the card as well. I was sitting
there reading the words to a song I’ve listened to hundreds of times and I was
reminded that it’s true. Even in moments where I feel like I have about zero
things to be thankful for – I truly have over 10,000 reasons to praise God. I
don’t deserve anything He has given me. Not one thing! I fail Him every day. And
yet He continues to love me, to bless me, to encourage me, and He continues to
give me glimpses of hope when I need them the most. I am blessed by every
single thing He has given me in this life – challenges and all – good and bad.
I owe Him praises all day long. No matter how crappy I think my day has been.
Love
Tampico
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